My Life in Three Parts With No Musical Accompaniment (1997)

My Life in Three Parts With No Musical Accompaniment
or
Above the Stars & a Circle


Overture:

You can go home again
I have seen it
You just can't fit in
I have been it.

Way back in eighty-six
My life was
stable so far.
(she didn't count).
Then:
We went to Baltimore
(to inspect it, to move there)
And then (as often happens)
Plans changed,
rearranged:
and we ended up further south
(instead).


Main Sequence:

So some time passed
And more time still,
Moving so fast
Against my will.

So then we were all in one place:
Myself only, lost in space,
Dreaming of something
that comes from stability
(who would she be? where was she?)
But no, they say, you get
experience
From going from place to place.
They say dislocated sometimes, too.
They have a lot to say.

Nonetheless,
(perhaps,
more or less)
I kept on dreaming
And sometimes screaming
(as circumstance warranted)
And then I found that place
of happiness,
(did I meet her?)
only to find (not Gideons� Bible)
That I had to leave shortly.
They say you get
experience
From going place to place.
I get that, sure I do.
I also get frustrated.
I also get depressed.
Experience:
It�s over-rated.
I�m experienced.

So I tried again, once more:
(hopefully) the last time.
After a while, it was better
Than before, the best it�s ever been.
(I met her)
And of course, I had to leave shortly.
(supernova)

Denouement:

There isn't one.
It's not over.
It's the never ending sequence:
The roller coaster of emotions.
I ride on it, but my
seat belt isn't
fastened, and I don't
keep my arms & legs inside the vehicle at all times.
I should.
And I should deal with things.
Clearly and brightly, I know it.
Beautiful, damned lucidity.